Weird feeling

[Wonderin]

I dont know what I hope to get out of this thread. Maybe some reassurance or better understanding.

I love my DP and we have a great relationship. I want to have kids with him and I never felt this way before. He does too.

I'm 31 and he's 36.

Our financial/job situations have been unstable but things have been really looking up the past 6 months. I think I would want to start trying for a baby the year I'm 33, give us a chance to build up more stability, etc.

But theres just this weird feeling inside me...like a sadness mixed with a panic...like for some reason, somehow, its not going to happen for me. I just cant understand it or explain it.

Is this just a different way of experiencing broodiness? Can anyone relate? Does anyone understand? I cant figure out why i cant just be like "OK, cool, we can start thinking about it in a year or two. Meanwhile...". Like I said, it's a strange panicky/sad feeling and I want to stop feeling it!

Sometimes your gut tells you things you're not ready to consciously think in your mind.

But sometimes it is anxiety and fear (if negative) or thinking what you want to think (if positive)

I get this sort of thing too about things but am never sure which of the above it is

It might be anxiety.
It could be actually something to listen too or just a reasonable fear.
What may work to uncover more is to go to counselling (person centred), where you can explore more what you want.

soz unreasonable fear

I relate to this. I was convinced that starting a family wouldn't happen for us and it did take ages the first time, two years. With me it was caused by anxiety, sort of it'll never happen to me, that sort of pessimism. I've now got 3 little beauties and things are so good I have to keep suppressing anxiety telling me it's too good and something bad will happen. Lol, I'm working on calming the fuck down. Good luck