I think the fact I'm even thinking about this says it all really but I'm scared and would really appreciate some advice.
I've been with DP for 8 years and have 1DC, he has 1DC from a previous relationship. It has only been over the past 18 months that he has introduced me to his DC, prior to this he spent half of his week at his with her. This has always been an issue for me and I'm now feeling like this has all been too late in happening and I feel like a fool for letting this happen.
I work and am studying so rely on him to drop DC to nursery on work days, study days I am able to drop off and collect. He doesn't contribute in any other way to anything at all. I'm unsure whether I love him anymore and want to end the relationship but can I? I wouldn't be able to go to work without the help getting DC to nursery as my shifts start at 7 and nursery doesn't open until 7.30.
I feel trapped, I feel like I am in this relationship as it has become the norm and I'm scared of starting over on my own. I know it isn't a healthily relationship, he doesn't contribute, he doesn't participate in any activities with DC, he sulks when he doesn't get what he wants when he wants.
I'm scared that he will become violent if I end the relationship.
Sadly I don't think I've ever been in a 'healthy' relationship, prior to meeting my now DP I was in a physically, sexually and mentally abusive relationship. Maybe I don't even know how a partner should be towards me in a relationship.
I just feel so sad, scared and confused right now. I hope this makes sense