I felt like I really needed to talk to someone.. I'm the 2sd family.. never thought that it was going to be so hard.. I have to share my partner with his other 2 kids.. and that's fine.. but not only that, at the moment I feel like I'm the last priority of his life. He is never around, he says he has no patience to deal with our kids, and that's because he already done that before with his other 2 kids, and claims he only had more children for me, because he never wanted them.. so he expects me to embrace motherhood basically on my own. I feel like Ive got the leftovers of his previous relationship... he was married once, so he feels marriage is not important, he gave his ex wife a £3000 proposal ring but I never even had a plastic one..
On top of all of this things we can't leave together, because we couldn't afford to, has he pays child maintenance and the government doesn't account for it.. he comes home on his days off, so he can look after the kids while I go to work... On top of this he just reconnect with 2 old mates and now he feels like he has to make up for all the time they've been apart, and all he does, in every gap of his work, is to meet up with them for a game or two of golf and a few drinks afterwards, and he has become obsessed about it. Even when we are together all he does is looking for golf stuff on eBay and talking to his friends on WhatsApp... In the main time I just feel lonely, depressed, and the only friend I had was him and now I've got nothing... And he doesn't understand... He thinks I am being immature, he can't understand that all I want is to have a normal family and for him to be around..