Hi everyone,
I'd like a bit of advice please.
Here is a bit of background info which should help everything make more sense.
I'm early 40's. Had been in a long term relationship for over 15 years from when I was really young. We fell out of love and it left me in my mid 30's trying to find a new partner. I was clueless about dating (primarily because I had never really done it before) and fast forward 3 years later I met someone and fell pregnant with their child. I wanted a child and was worried about my body clock ticking so we rushed everything. He basically ran and I was left on my own to go through the pregnancy on my own.
My daughter is now an amazing toddler and we are very happy. Luckily I'm financially stable, work and own my house. So the next step is to meet someone.
Dating with a child is a new thing for me and I've started internet dating over the past 3-4 months.
My problem is not meeting men, so far the men I've met seem interested and want to go on more dates. But this is where the problem is. I'm a bit worried because I enjoy the getting to know the person stage. But every time we get to even the 'meeting up stage' I then feel like backing out of it. I start to find the person annoying when I initially liked them. I know this isn't normal and I'm worried it's going to get in the way of me meeting someone. I'd love to be in a relationship again. It feels the right time for me, my life is where I want it to be and I'm happy and content. So why am I constantly having an internal battle with wanting to meet someone and then wanting to back out because I find the whole thing annoying 