Well where do I begin .... I think I know the answer please don't judge !!
I was silly enough go a school reunion ended up having an affair with and ex school friend he went back and forth for 2 years he was married should have ended it then believe me I tried it became an abusive relationship he totally destroyed me and I allowed it !!
We moved in obviously after he left 3 and a bit years in now living together several black eyes broken nose and ribs later it got better from the physical abuse but emotionally I've lost myself he drew me back never allowed to mention now what he did to me but!
We are supposed be getting married soon self respect zero intimate contact bores me whereas used to love it I'm very physical sorry too I much info
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If he doesn't agree with what I say he storms out he has 2 children 18 and 15 I have 2 in their twenties not currently speaking long story feel very alone
He wants keep giving to his kids even though maintenance now stopped for 18 year old I mention mine or giving through he says you don't talk to them why reward for. Not speaking but I hope we will sort things but he's always said my kids working but now his son is tack has changed etc any excuse he has my cash each month totally a narc and sociopath wtf I doing
Today challenged him cos now his 18 yr old started work maintenance stopped but he wants keep giving don't have issue with that kids are for life but he doesn't do same for mine had massive argument it's over again so controlling I have to move out he says
Oh and then in June went away with the lads she the ex went with her mates convenient saw texts saying she on same flight they weren't but arguments then a txt at midnight him to her where u xxx wtf again
I give up all time low I think I should run when I left husband few rocky years but found strength and myself but that person seems to have gone xx opinions please but don't be too hard I don't have the strength x