WTF is going on? Feel abandoned...

[EasyToEatTiger]

My husband has behaved appallingly over the years. Over a month ago he had me arrested for 'punching' him. I told the duty solicitor that I don't think I punched him. He said, never mind, common assault can be pretty much any form of contact. So I came home with a caution. My husband, not satisfied with that, found a solicitor and told them that I was abusive and that I'd kicked him. This is untrue.

The police gave me a crime number for his behaviour and said I should have a video interview. I have an IDVA and contact with WA.

Effing nothing has happened. I have been with the children about safeguarding, I have met IDVA woman, I have left a partial statement. And I am alone, gobbling tablets like it's going out of fashion.

I feel totally abandoned. I have had to engage a solicitor because I needed one.

At the moment I feel fucked. There is nobody, nobody at all who is helping. And I don't know where I stand, if indeed I stand anywhere.

what's going on with your husband op? Do you live together? And why are you gobbling tablets?

Yes we live in the same house. I am gobbling prescribed tablets from my gp as my blood pressure was right up, and so was my anxiety. And I need a bit more buffer from depression, and I live with an auto-immune disease which gets far worse when I'm under pressure, so yes, I rattle. although it's bloody awful and under normal circumstances I take far fewer drugs.

Why are you still living together?

Nowhere else to go. I work from home, my children are at home, my animals are at home. I have no family who I can rely on.

I am a woman in my 50s with a husband nearly 2 decades older than me. I have put up and tolerated the intolerable for a long time. Getting away is not easy. When I have told him I want out, he has been horrible. This time he wants to make it his decision.