How do I cope?

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My husband is a bully and makes my life as miserable as possible whenever he can or it seems to be if I'm happy he has to ruin it.

So many examples but I've taken valium and so can hardly type. How can I stop his horrible behaviour from affecting me. I can't leave at the moment and I'm hoping to God that he'll be able to go soon once his financial position improves in the next few months. I just need to get through the next few months without having panic attacks or anxiety.
We have dc and I don't want them scarred for life.

I'm so unhappy. I ask him why he stays and he has no answer. I just facilitate his lifestyle.

I feel so lost. Trying to utilise mindfulness and be in the moment but often the moment is so bloody awful.

How did it come to this?

Why can't you leave? Serious question. I often see people saying that in similar threads and the truth is you can always leave. It may not necessarily be easy and it may be scary, but you can always leave. Ring Women's Aid. If you really can't leave yet, still ring them.

I'm not in the UK. I have no funds to leave. I'm not entitled to anything and because he's not working technically he's threatened that he'll be primary carer and I'll be the one funding him. I want him out of the house but he won't leave.

Ice told him to go