Hello everyone, hoping I have come to the right forum as wasnt sure whether to post in health, let me know if its a better place ..!!
I have recently, after 25 years, ouch, come off the mini pill and boy has it changed my moods...I think or just changed me. I have become lets just say, more anxious, irritable and somewhat weird. like not wanting to be around my partner, we are stressed as it is with our house etc but lately I am finding when I am coming home from work, I am depressed and have to get back out again to the gym which makes me feel great...and I want to look at other men, which is not me at all. I am finding being on my own better and finding time to think more relaxing when on my own.
I am over at my parents, feel ok still anxious but don't want to go home again...I am thinking ok is this my partner or is this coming off the pill?
If it was the pill I would be feeling this around others too, surely?
So I came in from the gym and said to my partner, that I wasnt too sure what was wrong with me, felt it may be stress related to the house, him and the dog which has been on my mind as I work from home a lot and feel trapped but lately wanting to get my life back and feeling better for it until I get home to this house.
He said "here we go again, blaming me and your issues, I have had to tip toe around you for days etc etc...!' and on he goes only for me to feel worse and now sitting upstairs not wanting to talk to him. He then comes up and says sorry to me but starts again and carries on more drama...I am just sitting here asking to be left alone as its best whilst I am feeling all this.
We were out last night and didnt enjoy our time together and last week was the same too. Its like I just want to be alone and at the gym and at work and seeing family and thats all whilst I am sorting out what is going on in my head. I literally cant talk to me partner, even when he says its your hormones playing up, he will then kick off when I said I am not sure I feel it may be stress as well, which he isn't the best at being empathic in fact he is pretty hopeless when it comes to communication or making me feel calm. Hence on here or my mum who is great.
I need help, as I feel I am going mad at home and need to be away from him, I am missing other people's company and want to be around them who give me a high, other times just want to be alone in my bed or at the gym. I am not sure if I am finding him boring or just bored of our relationship but I cant seem to enjoy his company at the moment and felt too codependent for the last few months and suffocated in the house working from home with no hobbies, friends or time to myself.
Has anyone felt suffocated? bored and trapped when in a relationship but at the same time feel like you are going mad.
I am not sure if its the pill affecting me too since coming off but I am feeling strange and had to come off it for medical reasons and also for my own sanity too as I had cysts which has caused a few issues in the last few months. The pain has gone which is amazing so its helping in that sense just not sure on others lol.
thanks for reading my moan....