God where to start. Im in turmoil and I don know what to do. Basically I think that I no longer love my husband, He is irriating me beyond belief and I am being more and more snappy with him. I have no interest in sex (although when we do it, it is excellent.)
He is not doing anything 'wrong'. I think we just have different priorities and the longer we are together the bigger the differences are?
He is not abusive, puts me first, is a good husband, can be very kind and thoughtful. He loves me to the end of the world, I know he would literally stand out in front of a car to save my life or that of our children.
We did go to counselling a while back for a short while. I found it a bit helpful but not the magic cure I was hoping for.
There is little point in going to counselling again - although he would be willing. He is grumpy and can be moody and a bit lazy about getting things done. If I pull him up on any of these points he will listen, apologies and try harder. He does try his best I just think I dont love him as much as 1. he deserves 2. I deserve.
We are together 10 years and married for almost 4. We have 2 children. They are 3&5. I cant talk to anyone in real life about this, I dont want to bad mouth him or have people discuss our relationship. The one person I want to talk it through with (him), I cant because I will break his heart. Also I am hoping this is just a rough patch and that things will go back to the way we were. I dont want the children to grow up in separate house's (also no idea how we would afford that!) I dont want to be divorced,, I dont want to hurt him.
What do I do?