I split from my partner about a month and a half ago. It had got to the point I dreaded getting up in the morning because of his constant nagging, not doing anything, jealousy of our children etc.
Anyway he won't give up trying to get me back. He keeps sending begging messages and just plain creepy stuff. When I see him I revert back to not saying how I feel and being numb. Anyway last night after another long begging message I snapped and text exactly why I didn't want it to happen. I told him he drove me mad and I used to dread bedtime as i knew he would pester me until I gave into sex and that the thought of ever having sex again makes me feel sick. How it wore me down to feeling like I wasn't a person anymore. I also told him alot of other things that have been killing me inside for the years we were together.
The problem is now I feel bad for writing all of that and I don't know why. I know he has mental health problems which is probably why I feel like a bitch but it's no excuse for the way he treated me and the children. Is it normal to not want to upset anyone at the loss of your own happiness.
Sorry if this is a bit of a ramble i don't have many people to talk to in rl.