Accepting divorce

[TealSeal]

I've been married for 8 years, never been a blissful marriage but we've had some good times that kept me hopeful during the bad. We have a young child. Things have been strained for a few years now and I now need to accept that my marriage is over and move on.

But I'm really struggling. I know on paper we don't work, I'm unhappy and I deserve better in my life. I have no close family really, lots of friends but no real close friends. He literally is my only source of love and has been all of my adult life. I think this is why I find it so hard to let go, the thought of being so alone. Although in reality, I'm alone anyway as the majority of the time we do not get on.

The thought of him moving on makes me feel sick. How do you move on past this stage? I'm so scared of change I'd be prepared to carry on with a pretty miserable life which makes me so angry with myself. I am pathetic.

Teal you are not alone. You have a child.

Your child will give you more unconditional love than an unsuitable partner ever could.

Believe me, lone parenting is much better than being in a shit relationship

It's a little tough when they are young but I found when my dd got to 4 she was all I really needed. I focussed on her and my career. Spent time with friends and family.

There is a whole life outside of this unsatisfactory relationship you are in. Xxx

Jeaux is right. It is far better to be on your own, independent, footloose and fancy free, rather than to be with someone who irritates the life out of you.
You don't need someone who just brings negativity into your life. Its draining for you, its devastating for your child - principally because your relationship with the man in your life will become her template for what is normal.
Been there, done that. You need to prioritise your needs now. The rest, I promise, will fall into place.