Sorry if this is long winded but in my past I was abused by my uncle, told my older brother who then decided he could try things on too. My father would beat the crap out of my mother so that sums up the men in my like till my husband. He is everything I had dreamed and hoped for sweet kind brilliant father to our 2 children aged 7 and 8 years. When I was 5 months pregnant I found my husband secretly videoing me when asleep.I confronted him had a massive fall out but we stayed together. Over the last year maybe 2 I knew it had started again and have tried to turn a blind eye to it but because I feel so violated and hate him for it I cannot face sex with him. I knew he looked at porn and on searching his history was shocked to find he is watching teenage lesbian porn. This I draw a line with, I am shocked and broken to say the least and cannot even bear to look at him. I can understand him not getting enough sex with me that he would turn to porn but because of him videoing me secretly in shower getting dressed in bed, because of this deceit I cannot stand him to touch me, what should I do please help, I have no one to talk to as I feel disgusted. Its not the porn but teenage and why the need to video me after it nearly broke our marriage up 8 years ago when I was pregnant. Any advice!