I've posted about my relationship before. Things had been better but not overly fantastic. There were signs of progress but while out drinking recently 'D'P called me and told me he didn't thought we were very good together. Naturally I was upset. And take the view that if it comes out while pissed there's probably some truth in it! I had tried to raise it a couple of times and he had been dismissive / brushed it off.
Our main issue in the past has been thoughtlessness. Wrongly, I have somewhat neglected my friends over the course of my relationship. I'm now at a stage where I am going out more and doing more with my friends. He earns more so can afford to go away with friends more and do more socially with them as he has more disposable income.
He travels with work, is usually away 3-4 nights a week and we live together but the recurring issue is that I don't feel like a priority because of how much time he spends with his friends. E.g. So far this year he has been on 2 trips, has another two planned including a long haul trip. We have had a couple of weekends away and are meant to be going away for week soon but hadn't booked. We aren't married, no kids and are mid- late 20s.
This morning, after unsuccessful attempts at talking I tried to end our relationship (in person). I felt that I have been taken for granted a lot lately, his comments and then refusal to talk about it (I get some people don't like talking) but literally got a scoff. We have texted most of today putting our respective points of view across and I felt that perhaps some progress was being made. But since coming home I feel really upset. I suppose I wanted to consolidate what we had said earlier, try and work out if we stay together what steps do we take etc. I just feel like it's gotten nowhere. He feels his free time should be with his friends and if I want any time with him it needs to be scheduled! I don't feel that this is right when in a relationship where you co-habit. I've explained this.
I don't want to badger people in my day to day life on this given how up and down I have felt just today (!) and would really appreciate an objective perspective and some guidance on how to explain how I am feeling and work out what I want. It feels like whatever I say he has an answer.