Please can somebody hold my hand?

[EasyToEatTiger]

First, my daughter attacked me in the supermarket. My husband condoned the attack and shouted that I deserved every bit of it bla bla. The next thing he did was have me arrested for 'punching' him. This is not true. Then he went to a family solicitor to ask for a non mol and something else on the basis that I kicked him (not true). So I have had to engage a solicitor of my own. I am on beta blockers and valium and I am living in hell. My children have suffered over the years as well.
I have nowhere else to go, and have been told by my solicitor to go on as normal.

I have been given a crime number for my husband's behaviour and have been told umpteen times to make a video statement. At the moment I am just waiting. And waiting. And waiting. The pc has just gone on hols lucky man. I have no idea of what the future holds.

Here with a hand hold.
How old is your daughter?

Thank you Brown. She's 12. It honestly felt as though she was doing it on his behalf and the way she shouted at me afterwards, screaming that I made her do it sounded EXACTLY like my husband. I told her to take photographs of my injuries and later I took her to the gp. She has been to the gp a lot over the years because of her behaviour. About 5 or 6 years ago, I actually wondered if her behaviour was something to do with my husband, and paffed off the idea. My husband has called her a psychopath in front of a shrink. The shrink just said, no she isn't and carried on as though nothing had happened. This was about 3 years ago. My husband truly is a monster. He has told me that he isn't a monster.

That sounds awful.
Do you have family or friends, to give you support?
I know you say you've nowhere to go but you can't keep living like this.
No wonder you're on Valium.

Fucking hell, you poor love. Do you have any support in rl ?

I am only just beginning to get to know people in the area. We have lived here for a few years. It takes a long time to get any sense of belonging. I have told my new friends. Frankly it is really scary and I don't feel like the most popular person in the room with all this horrible baggage. I've also told someone at the band I play in, and I've mentioned things to the place where I volunteer. Family-wise, it's impossible to deal with my birth family but I have told another relation what's been going on. My brother has been through hell with his ex wife, who abused him to a criminal extent, really badly and he thinks it is what he deserves. Part of the family dysfunction. So...in reality, it's a pretty lonely place. My husband is of course behaving as though nothing has happened.

Today in the supermarket I was shopping, and it reminded me so much of when I was clinically depressed, and really my apetite had gone. It is a struggle to eat now.

Just taken the valium and drinking elderflower champagne (You'd get diabetes before you got drunk). At least it has calories!

At least you have made some friends. Hopefully they will be supportive.
I'm sure you know you have to eat. You need strength. Try a little food as often as you can manage it.
Sorry I can't be of more help.
Enjoy your wine.

Nurse here. Careful with the Valium and wine.

Good luck with everything.

Thank you for the warning. I hope I'm ok drinking elderflower champagne. It's called champagne just because it's fizzy, and it's got a minimal amount of alcohol in it. It's more like a soft drink and not moorish. I think you'd end up in a diabetic coma before you became drunk. This is what a diabetic nurse tells me!

I am trying to eat. At the moment I don't want to be in a room with my husband, and I certainly don't want to be in the same room eating.