Finally blocked and deleted.

[Happytobefree17]

NC because my last thread was pretty outing. But wanted to say thank you to everyone to advised me to block and delete abusive ex.
Finally found the strength to say goodbye forever. I feel relieved and liberated. Didn't expect it to be such a powerful experience.

Well done

I did the same a week ago. Life is better.

Well done, I'm on the same path, not quite out yet but getting there and I'll be doing exactly the same. Thank you for proving it can be done xx

KJP It was one of the hardest things I've ever done. The hold my ex had on me made me feel like I was going crazy, the gaslightighting and emotional abuse wore me down until I didn't have the energy to fight.

But I finally found the strength to say enough and love myself more than I loved him.

I still wobble occasionally, still sometimes have that voice in my head that draws me back to thinking he was right, but I know I'm worth more and I cannot go back.

The best of luck and good wishes to you. You can do it!

Well done Happy

Well done! I am on the nc path, very beginning. Won't lie I find it hard and have slipped off the wagon multiple times. So hats off to you for actually doing it and sticking with it x

Thanks for the words of support.

Today has been a bit difficult. I keep remembering the good times and wondering if it was my fault it went so wrong.

But I know there is no excuse for the kind of mental and emotional torture he inflicted. No matter how much he twisted things round, I know I didn't deserve the cruel actions.

He would ignore me for days, throwing scraps of affection my way when he wanted sex. Have flings with other women, saying they were part of his life, that they needed him and if I didn't like it then I knew where to go. But when I tried to leave, would beg me to stay promising he would change his ways. Guess what? It never changed.

But I loved him. God knows why. But I did. So yes it is hard to stay away.

I'm in a similar position and am having a bad day and am feeling very lonely today. It's been 6 months since my ex walked - he had a break down of sorts but he lied, manipulated, used all through our relationship. I had a holiday tho to plan & so coped Ok but now the holiday is past I just feel lonely. We did have good times & he became so much part of my life but I think that is part his personality....He gets into your head & takes over
He also phoned me out of the blue last week which threw me. I don't have called I.D. but totally wasn't expecting him!

It's the summer hols & am working so daughter is away most of hols so I have a lot of time on my own & I do miss our friendship for whatever it was.