Hi all, so as you can probably tell from the title I'm feeling a bit sorry for myself. My partner of 15 months broke up with me on Wednesday and I'm absolutely devastated. He was the nicest person I had ever met and would do anything for anyone. He was supportive and always had my back. He was amazing with my 3 year old daughter and treated her like his own. Completely different to her Dad who I was in a mentally abusive relationship with for 6 years and who is currently in prison for robbery and false imprisonment involving myself and my daughter. Anyway, 4 weeks ago it was my birthday and he wrote the most beautiful thing in my card about wanting to spend the rest of our lives together, then on Wednesday he came round like normal and when I asked if he was ok he said not really. I asked him what was wrong and his response was everything. I asked if 'we' were a problem and he said maybe and when I said if he wanted to be with me anymore he said don't think so no. I didn't give him a chance to explain very well, told him to get all his stuff out of the house (we don't live together) and that was that. I couldn't explain how someone's feelings could change so dramatically in just a few weeks, from wanting to spend the rest of our lives together to not wanting to be with me anymore.
He spoke to my mum yesterday and he said he couldn't explain why but he just didn't think there was a spark anymore. He also said he had so much going on with a new job (which he hates) and not seeing his children very much because of working unpredictable shift patterns. He also said there has been a lot of arguments between his ex wife and her new partner (who has a history of violence) in front of his children and it's really worrying him. Basically said he has so much going on in his head he can't deal with it all and I guess something had to give, and that thing was me. He said he doesn't know if he will feel different in a few months time but he couldn't stay with me because it wasn't fair.
I'm absolutely heartbroken. After all the trouble with my daughters dad I said I would never put my trust in a man again but slowly and eventually I did because my partner was just so amazing and completely different from my ex but now I just don't think I can ever put myself in this situation again. All I can think about is him and keep telling myself he'll change his mind but I know he won't. All I want to do is keep texting him to tell him how much I love him and that maybe everything that's happening in his life has made him come to the wrong decision. I just don't know how to deal with this.