this year has been one of the hardest for me and my family. My husband and i separated at the start of the year after i found out he has taken out numerous huge loans to try and save his failing business and lied to me over and over again over a period of 5 years.
i have almost lost my home due to my income being so small but somehow i have kept us going. i have lost both of my beloved dogs due to illness been in hospital myself because of the stress.
my husband has given me very little support, after leaving me with huge debts he has continued with failing business and impossible to pay loans. I later found out he was dealing with loan sharks and my children had been threatened.
Theres been no support for me from anyone, I've just had to keep going no matter what.
on sunday he tried to take his own life, i don't believe it was a serious attempt more a cry for help but even still it hasn't been taken lightly.
it made me realise how much i still care.
however its days 4 now of being in hospital, he is fine other than them wanting to do a scan but he has been kept waiting two days so far because they are so busy. I've tried to help and get him to be assertive and ask for an outpatients appointment but he refuses. i think he wants to stay in there to hide from his problems as he has said its the first bit of peace he has felt.
i am fuming, but feel like the most selfish person in the world for being angry at him. what if i decided i just can't parent at the moment? that isn't an option for me i have to just keep going! i wouldn't be able to spend 5 days in hospital i have bills to pay and a job to go to!!
i know I'm going to get ruined for posting this but i just needed to vent!