Feeling down

[whatsmyname2017]

Been single now for a few months. Separated from 16 year relationship and he moved out a couple of months ago. Had an awful time at the start but really thought I was coming through it and starting to enjoy my new life.
I was on a total high yesterday as had plans to go out with friends. Going out though has made me realise that actually it can be a bit depressing being single. Maybe I had hoped to get more attention from men or something, I don't know. I did chat to a couple of lovely looking blokes but then they just left so it made me feel a bit shit.
I'm not explaining this very well but I woke up this morning (hungover) and just feel so bloody depressed about it all. I'm not even bothered about starting another relationship, maybe I'm just realising it can be lonely on your own.
The kids are at their dads until tomorrow and I'm really missing them. I'm sat here on my own and just don't know what to do with myself.
I even signed up to POF last night and woke up to about 200 random men who want to meet me, ALL of them awful so have immediately deleted my profile.

Yep what you are feeling is loneliness - it can take a while to get used to and be comfortable in your own company. As you've only been single a few months I would say the last thing you need is another man in your life. Take take time and learn to enjoy your own company.

Yes it probably is loneliness. I had hoped I was over the worst of that though. I suppose alcohol doesn't help.
I think its hitting home now that I'm moving out of the family home soon too (had to sell it).
All the guilt is now back. I feel miserable, my ex is miserable and I've uprooted my children's lives..... I certainly don't want him back but I do sometimes wonder if I should have just carried on putting up with things instead of now suffering a different kind of misery.