Why?

[whydoithinkifeelthis]

I like him, we have fun together, we are our own people I'm ok being me but for fucks sake I want him and it's confusing?
I don't want tobe Ina real relationship with him but I don't want to not be in a relationship with him either? So confusing?

Go home OP, you're drunk

Yep your right I'm drunk night all but thanks for your thoughts

"We don't present as a couple because that's not our rep"

I missed that gem.

For heaven's sake OP, cone back to this in the morning when you have a clear head and cringe at what utter wank that statement is! And resolve to sort yourself out.

Try having a relationship that's about two people - not about how they "present" to the rest of the world. Ditto the labels - labels only exist if you're spending more time thinking about what others think than what you think.

Oh OP love my 15 year old daughter would cringe at this! How old are you? Why do you need the drama? It's simple... you are free to be with him, he is free to be with you, you like each other!!! Most people get this without the teen angst! Drama Llamas often attract each other, just sayin x

I hope your head is ok this morning OP.

Maybe add to the post when you're sober. You sound very confused.

Op hope you are feeling better this morning.

It seems to me that you both want a relationshio but are scared because of your pasts. Instead of accepting the fear and doing something to tackle it, yoh are declaring "thats not our rep" and "we dint do commitment"

But you do. You have committed ti veing exclusive. You both need to tackle your fear. Admit its fear and deal with it. Maybe that means taking sometime away from eachother to do this.

But this relationship is heading into a drama fuelled angst fest. Which will leave you feeling that 'commitment isnt my rep' was the right all along. But its not commitment thats not right for you. Its that the relationship involves two people dealing with their own issues but not sorting them.

If you sort yourself and still feel commitment isnt for you. Fair enough. But it sounds like you want to commit. Are too scared to and dressing it up so you dont need to admit that its fear.