I have a short break booked for mid August. I was supposed to go with the guy I was meeting for a couple of months. Last month he confessed feelings for ex and we decided to stay friends, and meet then anyway, just as friends (obviously without sharing the room). Now we have been NC for almost 3 weeks, apart from one message he did not reply to.
My problem is - what to do with this booking, should I go anyway? I cannot amend it or cancel it, I already have train tickets bought. It's almost 3 days and at the end of it I have a flight booked from the local airport as I will be flying to see my family abroad. If I cancel it, I will lose ca £300 and I cannot really afford a new flight ticket to go away abroad where all is arranged and booked already too, it will be my only holiday this year.
The stay is in a nice city where the guy lives, so going there on my own will be painful, as it will be a reminder of him and the good times we had and could have had.
My friend says just go there anyway, go to cafes and stroll along the beach, read the books in the park etc., use it as an opportunity to have nice time for yourself.
But I am not sure that I will be able to do that. Knowing he is just 2 miles away!
When we parted he said he will still want to meet but will understand if I change my mind and won't come. He also offered to give me money back for the hotel, but I don't want his money. And even if wanted, we are NC now so I won't suddenly text him saying: yes, actually give me the money back, as I am not coming...
WWYD?