on the first day of the summer holidays, I looked at myself in the mirror and made a promise to myself that by the next summer holidays I would have left my abusive H, and that I would walk into a travel agent and book a holiday for the DC and me.
I left H almost 5 months ago and, while I haven't quite the resources yet to fulful the second part of my promise to myself, I did go into a travel agent and pick up a brochure for next year 
. Plus we are still going to have a holiday as we are squeezing into my parents self catering rental with them at the end of August.
I'm not entirely sure what the point of my post is, but I guess I am just feeling rather proud of myself, and I couldn't have done it without Mumsnet. I've been on here for 8 years, not a frequent poster and have had a few usernames. At times I hid the relationships board because I knew it would just upset me and tell me to LTB, which I knew already but just couldn't work out how to do. When I finally left I had a thread where some wonderful people supported me and gave me excellent advice. So I just wanted to say a big thank you 