on the first day of the summer holidays, I looked at myself in the mirror and made a promise to myself that by the next summer holidays I would have left my abusive H, and that I would walk into a travel agent and book a holiday for the DC and me.
I left H almost 5 months ago and, while I haven't quite the resources yet to fulful the second part of my promise to myself, I did go into a travel agent and pick up a brochure for next year 
. Plus we are still going to have a holiday as we are squeezing into my parents self catering rental with them at the end of August.
I'm not entirely sure what the point of my post is, but I guess I am just feeling rather proud of myself, and I couldn't have done it without Mumsnet. I've been on here for 8 years, not a frequent poster and have had a few usernames. At times I hid the relationships board because I knew it would just upset me and tell me to LTB, which I knew already but just couldn't work out how to do. When I finally left I had a thread where some wonderful people supported me and gave me excellent advice. So I just wanted to say a big thank you 
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carriemathisonshandbag · 24/07/2017 23:12
Well done and have a lovely holiday, this year and the next
I'm not entirely sure what the point of my post is, but I guess I am just feeling rather proud of myself
And so you fucking should be!
You should be proud. A life without walking on eggshells is so worth it. I didn't realise until he wasn't around that I hadn't truly looked forward to anything for years with the stress of dealing with him. Life without him is a million times better. 
Carrie I don't think I even realised until I got out either. I am on holiday with my dcs right now and i realised how much of last year's revolved around me making sure that he was ok. This time we are pleasing ourselves - it's easy AF.
There is no tension in the pit of my stomach all the time.... and I was so used to that before that I didn't even realise it was there.
You have done amazingly well - try and enjoy some peace while your dcs are away - my ex is taking mine for 5 days in a couple of weeks and I know it'll be hard but I'm going to try and relax and enjoy it.
I can't wait for that feeling of going away on holiday with the DC and not having to make sure he is ok/smooth over tensions so my family don't notice. We are actually going back to the same place we went to last year. It was really difficult as there were so many things I wanted to do with the DC which he wouldn't allow, so I really feel that this year we are going to do it properly
Have a lovely holiday aperol
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