Hi, please bear with me it's long, I'm married 8 years, with him 14 years, 4 years we were in a long distance relationship, I discovered while I was pregnant with my first daughter that my husband had issues with porn, excessive usage, I didn't know how bad it was, forward on 10 months, I discovered I was pregnant with my second child in that same week I discovered, my husband had been looking up escorts in our local area, had exchanged nudes with a much older woman, and had been talking to other women online. I was devastated, I didn't know where to turn, I live 200+ miles from my own family and old friends, that pregnancy was horrible and I spent a lot of it off my feet, I had spd and other health problems, along with a toddler.
I tried my best to move on, we spoke about it and he said he'd never be with a escort. Things have been strained since, intimacy has completely stopped, in the last 2 years its like living with a brother or something.
Last week I discovered his been looking at bestiality and escorts again, I'm just over this, I feel sick, I don't work so I depend on him totally financially, if I didn't have two young kids I'd leave him, I no longer want to be married to him, he seems to think that we are ok 😕😕😕we have been to marriage counselling and it didn't work too well, he is lazy around the house, during the week, everything is done for him, just at the weekend I expect a hand, don't think it's too much to ask, we are due back to counselling tomorrow but I'm going heavy hearted as I couldn't imagine going back to any type of relationship aside from being parents, I'm stuck here for the foreseeable Thank you for reading,