Over 3 years ago my cousins best friend who lives a 4-5 hour drive away from me had the most ridiculous romantic one night thing. I won't go into all the details but it involves a hot tub, watching shooting stars me telling him (God knows why) my deepest darkest secret at the time which is still a huge deal for me now, all at his house which also happens to be 5 meters from the beach.(vomit worthy right?).
Naturally I became obsessed which did not help given my depression at the time and eating disorder (the big secret which I still suffer from but not so secret now) as well as a false positive pregnancy text after it which he didn't know about. So after some talking over text, I told him I had feelings but I was not expecting anything due to the distance and we sort of ended talking.
I actually got with my current boyfriend 3 months later and was not totally over him then.
Me and my boyfriend have the best relationship, every moment spent together is like being on holiday even the really boring things like finances, our arguments never last more than a few hours, we aren't perfect but I love him so much and have absolutely no intention of breaking up with him, I've never felt so comfortable with another person, we are such a good fit. However, I still think about my cousins friend far more often than I'd hope, and every now and then It gets quite intense, I even dream of him, I don't understand why I'm not over him, I'm happy, it's been long enough, I love my life as well as my SO but still! I don't know if it's because we left it because of distance or because as he's my cousins best friend I very occasionally still see him, or because of how intense it was due to my mental state. Has anyone experienced anything like this. I just want to forget about him.