Husband flew of the handle 5 years ago, sat on me and subjected me to volley of punches which i deflected with my arms over my face until he got me on the jaw. He had tried to thump me a few years before in the car from the fromt seat while i was sitting behind with my toddler son. I stayed with him as i felt so sick with worry that i felt incapable of leaving with my children. He said as i had had depression i would be unlikely to get custody.
Something happened last week to make him angry with me, i was over anxious about something and being a pain, but when i saw the old temper in him i left.
My children are over 16 now, but want me to return. My husband admits he flew off the handle 5 years ago, but says it was 5 years ago get over it as it will not happen again. He knows he did something to me but says he was in such a rage he does not remember. He says he was brought up with violence and i am just unable to let go and forgive.
How can i trust him? Should i give it another go? I must admit i feel free of him at the moment as there was no love shown by him and i was always watching what i said and bought etc. Advice please.