I split from my emotionally abusive and selfish ex two years ago (not DC dad), haven't spoken/heard from him in a year. Last Thursday I logged onto my email account on my ancient laptop and it (somehow) brought up a Skype txt app - I didn't even know I was linked to Skype. The app said I'd received a msg and it was from him. It read as though it was to someone else and had been sent 4 days earlier. I replied just to say he'd sent a msg meant for someone else and he said he didn't realise but sorry.
Been thinking of him ever since. I've never got over him and I'm pretty much still in love with the person I thought he was.
Today has been shit. This week has been suite. This month, no, this year has been a complete bastard. Finally job application that I really needed failed today, car needs scrapping and I've fallen off the wagon in spectacular style. Go me. So of course I make the next logically bad step and txt the ex. He hasn't replied. I feel so stupid. I don't want to go to sleep cos I'll get up to either abuse or disgust.
Shit shit shit shit shit!
How do I explain away this mistake? Someone got my phone? Prank? Aliens?
Ulgh 
