This is going to turn into a drunken ramble so I should probably start by apologising.
Was single for 3.5 years after splitting from EA exh. Few months back met someone on PoF and after few stumbles (lying about his age, and then doing something I found really disrespectful) things seemed to be going well. He met DD and she absolutely adores him. But now I'm wondering if my total lack of self confidence is making me put up with something that's not quite right? He's 15 years older than me, and while other people have said he should consider himself 'lucky' to have a younger, tall, slim gf (their words, absolutely not mine) I'm the one worrying that I'm punching above my weight. Although he made the effort at first, the past month or so it feels like I'm doing all the running. It feels less like a relationship and more like we hook up a couple of times a week for a meal and sex. I love this man. I can't stress that enough. And he says he loves me. But I'm not sure he really does. ATM he's abroad on a stag do and I've heard nothing from him all day. Normally he'll message me every couple of hours, and whatsapp is showing he's been online multiple times but I've heard nothing. This isn't me being needy, it's just not like him to not message me at all.
I don't know what to do.
I genuinely love him - for the most part he treats me well and is a lovely man. But right now I can't help but wonder if he's using my lack of self confidence to make me feel like I can't do any better than him?
I just need some advice and possibly a kick up the backside.