Hello.
I have a 1 year old daughter and a 3 year old son (my son doesn't have the same father, his father is not involved in his sons life by choice and never has been, it was a volatile relationship).
I was not strictly "with" my daughter's dad when she was conceived. It was something casual in that "just seeing how it goes" phase when I found out I was pregnant. He moved out of the country (for work) prior to finding out I was pregnant so it just fizzled in to nothing (we was using protection so a baby was the last thing on either of our minds) However, since our daughter has been born he has been an active part of her life, he is completely besotted by her, he see's her weekly and pays in excess of £1000 in child support (due to the nature of his career.) He also plays a big part in my sons life (my son is aware this is not his father) but they will go for days out with my daughter, to the park, to football matches etc.
We get on very well, it just feels like there is "something" between us, I can't explain it and I don't know what it is, I just haven't felt it before. We joke, laugh, have fun, go out whenever he comes to see his daughter. Every week he will come down to pick up our daughter and we will go out to do something (out to eat, to the beach etc) before he takes her to his for the weekend. It just feels like there's a spark between us that I haven't experienced with anyone else.
We talk daily (he asks how our daughter is daily) and the conversation flows from there. We facetime every other day so he can see his daughter (but usually leads in to a conversation between just us two when shes asleep, discussing random things) He is so supportive of me, he came to my graduation, he is there whenever I need to speak, he brought me a car because my one had packed up. He has told me "if you need any help with the kids, money or even just someone to talk to please let me know because I can help with anything and I want to be the first person you go to".
We have had sex on one occasion (back in January) but it hasn't happened since as I told him it shouldn't happen again and he accepted that.
We have had no conversation about "feelings" or anything of that nature, he has told me on a different topic how he cares about me because I am the mother of his child, but that was an unrelated topic. I have never brought up my feelings for him, I just seem to keep them to myself because I don't know if he feels the same and I am scared of rejection. I am only 21 (he is 24) so I don't know if I am perhaps just naive and have a deluded fantasy of a "perfect" family with the father of my daughter. I just don't know if/how/when I should tell him.