I saw my mum this evening.
I'm 19 and left almost the minute I turned 16. She abused me both physically and emotionally from when I can remember- maybe three? I've been NC with her since I ran away three years ago. I've seen her once in the last three years because my gran forced me to see her.
I 'bumped into' her on the street. She had a history of stalking my old address (sitting outside in her van and sending letters) and I saw her in the area I'm moving to in just over a week. I'm freaking out in case she knows I'm moving there, although there's no way she could. She tried to speak to me and I just kept walking. I don't know how I feel but I definetely don't regret not stopping and speaking to her.
I just needed to put this somewhere because I've vented to my friends enough over the last few years. Bleugh. Feel shaken and want to cry but I feel a bit emotionally blocked. 