I am on the verge of becoming a single parent to my 1 yr old daughter. I know its the right step as my dh is definitely emotionally abusing me.
A bit of back story. I have been with dh for 6 yrs married 2.5yrs and we have a 1 year old. He was an okay partner though had a bad temper and there were times he would just blow up for small stuff.
He was really lovely all the 9 months I was pregnant and I could never imagine then that we would break up. He was so eager to have kids.
However as soon as dd arrived it was almost like a switch was turned off. He changed massively overnight. He has called me f bit, f c* for really small stuff. Doesn't help at all with our daughter. Is terribly controlling. He logs into my bank account to check my balance under the pretext that we are saving to buy a house. When I don't give my password he blows up and creates a terrible fight, stops eating food, orders pizza for himself so he doesn't have to eat the dinner I am cooking, sleeps on the couch, and basically sulks the whole time. And then just like that he will become normal.
In the past 6 months, this has happened at least twice every month. I am always walking on eggshells around him. So I know I married a f nasty controlling twat.
But what is really hurting me is that this is my second marriage. I entered this relationship soon after my first divorce. There were a few warning signals but not that apparent as they are now.
So I feel like a massive failure that I have landed myself in to the same shithole again. All I have wanted is to have a loving family and a stable family home. But it seems like a distant dream and not one that is meant for me.
Its the 'why me' thats pulling me down. How did he change so much after our girl arrived when we both wanted kids?
Please I need to hear I am not the only one who has botched up her life twice. And please tell me some success stories. Can I ever accomplish my dream of having a home for my little daughter.