In bloody agony, wondering whether to leave marriage for someone else or not. Been struggling with DH, possibly normal marriage stuff, possibly something deeper. Intimacy issues, connection issues, feeling lonely (feeling like a walking cliche). Struggle with his moodiness and angry outbursts (never violent and not that frequent but hate them anyway). Also with wanting more physical touch sex and intimacy than him and feeling rejected. Made the schoolgirl stupid mistake of allowing something to develop with someone else, whom I love. Need to stop asap since shitty way to be with someone and love him. Gave me some confidence that I could be ok on my own, attraction, validation, connection, intimacy.... all the stuff I long for in my marriage... but the idea of leaving DH for someone else still feels messy. Also want to be mentally in a good place for my kids and does not feel right to leave until have tried everything, plus does not take much for me to not be present with the kids and being ok for them has got to be my number one priority. Do not want to put a bomb under everyone's life. Struggling with the idea of going back to feeling constantly rejected by mismatched sex drives in the marriage and with dealing with feeling alone, although right thing to do morally, ethically etc. Love my husband very much and we have been through a lot, we have much in common, we understand eachother, and when we are both in a good place things are great (when we are both in a dark place we have mostly learnt to work around it). But the idea of begging for sex for next 30 years also feels agony. Any advice?