Hi all,
I posted previously about my newly toxic friendship which i have thankfully got rid of!
I'm pretty lucky that i have a couple of different groups of friends a group of friends me and my husband both are friends with but I Will see the girls on my own and we will do our own thing a lot of the time... I also have another group of girlfriends that I go out with and go to concerts with..
However my main group of friends live in london which is 3-4 hours drive away, all of them work, one of the couples now have a baby so now there is no room for us to stay which means we can visit less often as we have to get hotels - things are hectic more than ever - if I'm lucky I see them once every 2 months but its usually longer than that. we all have a group chat and keep in contact but its not the same.
my other group of girlfriends are the same, they live slightly closer but still around 1 hour 30 - 2 hours away and they all have kids, work and responsibilities the next time i will be seeing them will be September where we have all scheduled something in our diary to catch up.
my husband has recently stopped home working and got a new 'regular' job' which means he has met a lot of new friends who live near by..
I'm self employed I do a lot of hair modelling for salons and brands - I work around the country i have a few people I'm friendly with but due to the nature of the job I don't think i'd actually hang around with these people a lot of them are clients - the last friend i made from in my job was the toxic friend so I'm trying to keep myself to myself at the moment - and again most of the people i'm meeting in my job are around the country anyway - so far away again.
I guess I just feel pretty lonely at the moment.
with my job I work 1-3 jobs a week due to the way in which the modelling works and the good pay of each job. So I spend a lot of time at home on my own which sometimes is good because my job isn't a 9-5 and I can be grateful for that time - my grandmother recently had an accident so having this spare time at the moment is really handy to help out.
I see my mum a lot and spend a lot of time with family but I just feel like i have no friends - even though I do but they are all so far.
My husband has been going out with his new friends which is great to see him meet people as he was homeworking for 4 years as he moved to where I am from before we got married so he literally knew no one - so its great to see him get friends.. I would never be jealous of that but I think its made it really clear to me that I feel even more lonely now he is at home less too..
I find myself with a lot of time on my hands and a lot of time to think which sometimes can be bad for you I think. At 26 I feel like I've accomplished a lot and we are about to buy a house this year me and my husband have a great relationship - its a weird time at the moment getting used to his new shift patterns which can be crazy so I'm trying to adjust to the fact there is more time on my own.. But I just wish that the friends part of my life was different - I feel like I'm wasting a lot of time and therefore wasting my youth :(
Maybe others can relate to this, I'm not sure?