I want to be single

[justkeepflying]

Me and my DH argue argue argue. I have another thread going in chat about 30 hours free childcare. Had a big argument about that as well because I apparently should get another job blah blah.

What I want is to be single again, I want to go out drink kiss random guys and relive my youth.
I'm in my early 20's.
I'm so sick of this, I feel like an old woman. I shouldn't be afraid to move on admit this relationship just doesn't work anymore and be happy.

I'm such a wimp I worry about proving everyone right that young marriage doesn't work.
Disappointing my mum and family because they all think he's great.
I'm sad for my children that we wouldn't be a family anymore.
Then all the other implications where would we live would he move out etc.
Every argument we have he wins me around, I've asked him to leave before more than once he always manages to bring me around.

I love him I really do but I want to be single.
I've never admitted that to anyone but I've been thinking it for a while.
We'd both be happier even if he can't see that now.
I don't want another relationship I'm happy to stay single I just want to feel like I don't belong to another person anymore.
To add he's not abusive in anyway he's just not on the same page as me
We don't work we both know that
You can love someone so much but not want to be with them anymore right?

I'm a lone parent. I love being on my own. I do see someone (after 5 years of not) but I so don't want to live with anyone again at the moment.

When I'm traveling for work or out for the night I really love that feeling that my night can go anywhere I want. I don't answer to anyone but me.

Jeaux I envy you. I used to think that if something is broken you try your damned hardest to fix it, you don't give up you make it work because this is what you signed up for. I'm not so sure anymore.

I felt exactly like that. Was with my ex for 25 years, got with him when I was 19 and to be honest was unhappy for a long time. I just got to the stage where I wanted to just be on my own, do what I wanted without the sulking etc etc. More to it than that obviously but that was a big part of it. Just make sure if really is what you want before you throw the bomb in the room. Being on your own is not always what it's cracked to be. It's one thing to desire your own company, it's another when it's enforced on you, you start to crave company. Only you know how you really feel, just know that the grass isn't always greener, sometimes you just have to water your own grass. Don't get me wrong, I don't regret
Leaving him as ultimately we wanted different things out of life but it's been hard, bloody hard. However, you're still really young so if you do want to leave do it sooner rather than later and don't be like me, miserable for ages because life is short and you need to do what makes you happy. Just don't expect to skip off into the sunset like I did, because the reality can be very different. Good luck

And yes you can love someone but not want to be with them. I will always love my husband, just don't want to live with him and be married to him anymore.

But you have one life OP. Just the one. Don't waste it lusting after something, go do it. And signing up to something doesn't mean you have to stick with it. Social constructs piss me off, don't do this to yourself. X

I guess I watch to many films I want a relationship like in the movies. All mine is, is arguing, making up, arguing, making up and repeat.
More and more I'm starting to dislike things, I don't want to end up hating him. I want to be friends, I want to have a laugh and spend time together I just don't think I want a relationship anymore.

Life is too short.

OP it sounds like things will soon come to a head naturally and that you know deep down what you want. Eventually living arrangements and the shock of the split will settle. Then you can both parent as you see fit. You don't have to live together to do it well.

You're so very young. Of course you want to kiss random guys. However don't expect that to necessarily change as you get older. You may well feel exactly the same way at 45. It doesn't go away for everyone.

Monogamy and life as a couple is largely a made up concept. Made up by society (and the church) to contain female sexuality.

Fly free and remember life is short!