I am 24 and when I was 17 I had a bad accident with a chainsaw and my face has been very badly damaged ever since. So I have never been able to get a girlfriend so I have never really tried.
But I recently lost my Granddad and that has made me realize that I am not going to be around forever. So even if there is a 0% chance of me finding someone it makes sense to try anyway.
I did try it a few years back. Nobody wanted me (understandably). I remember seeing my best mate busy on his phone flicking through all the girls that wanted him and I was upset so I gave up. I'm just too afraid to try again.
Every man I know sees girls as sexual objects that exist only for their own pleasure. So they never have girlfriends they just 'use' them. When I ask them why they saw 'oh, I can't be bothered, sleeping with them is all they are good for.'
This makes me mad because I would give my right arm for a girlfriend. I am prepared to put the work in and be there for them when they are upset etc. Only sleeping with them wouldn't feel right to me. Maybe I'm strange.
One night my sister said no to sleeping with her boyfriend one night because she didn't feel like it. So he got really angry and smacked her. And she still goes running back to him!
So all the girls are queuing around the block to see those men but not me. How is that fair? It winds me up so much.
Sorry I go on a rant sometimes.
What should I do?
Thank you