Hi everyone
I met my now ex a few years ago I already had two kids from another relationship. We decided to have a baby then I got caught soon after when baby number 2 was 3 months he walked out on us. He did help with the kids. He moved home to his parents. We kept going back and forward with each other for well over a year. I ended up pregnant again he went bunts called me every name you can think off his family was always in his ear they never liked me they said he could do better.. He wasn't there when I was pregnant with number 3 I did the whole 9 months on my own I was in labour on my own as well. He showed up just after I had the baby. Then when the baby was born he was all over us never left our side then 5 days in he left us again.. he went off with another woman a one night stand of course. Now 6 months in he takes the older two on weekends he says he can't mind the 3 on his own so I have the new baby full time on my own. He sits in his parents with them helping him while I'm home on my own with 5 kids. He helps himself along in life while I have to worry and tend to the kids on my own. His family play a big part in talking to him telling him he's doing the right thing and to stay away to mind his kids out with them. I'd love to cut all contact but I need a break the older 2 get so fed up and then want the weekends to do stuff. I feel broken I feel like a loser I'm left with 5 kids on my own to sort everything out while the 2 so called fathers are looking after themselves. I had to leave the 3 babies with him for a few hours last week and when I went to get him he was sitting with his parents watching television all calm while I was walking out with 3 kids under the age of 3 and my other two his father said to me wow look at you with all them kids. I feel so low and small every time I have to go out to him a drop them off I feel like going and never coming back. Everyone around me is telling me to frig him and just move on and forget what's happened but the same ones is out fighting for there relationships they would kill anyone who tried to get in the way. My so called friends don't answer the phones when there partners is there cause they are flat out trying to make them happy and the same ones say ah sure your better off on your own.. I worry about the kids future cause let's face it I'm all they have they don't have real dads cause if they did they would be with them right???
Sorry for the long post 😞😞😞