'D'H and I have been married now for 5yrs and have 2 DC under 4years old. I have little to no other family or support network. I'm the main earner putting in 12hr shifts sometimes in a very stressful role. He's got a diagnosed MH condition and I've tried to care for him. There have been times he's been vile, told me he hated me.c He's done some pretty cruel things too like trying to take the family car the day before we were booked to go on holiday, leaving me stranded with two devastated kids. He's now much better, things are slowly returning to normal. Then I discover he's been meeting and messaging women behind my back. When he was being dreadful to me he was nipping round to see his OW to help her out. I got my car damaged and he screamed at me, left me in tears. She got burgled and he was round like a flash. Loads of other examples but they would be too identifying. How do I even move on from this now. I am exhausted, financially wrecked and feel like the most undesirable person in the world.