Not sure if anyone can help. Last year I had a miscarriage at six weeks and have not felt normal since. I am now pregnant again which was planned.
I have episodes where I am convinced my husband is having an affair despite no evidence at all. He mainly works from home, has no password on his mobile although he does take it everywhere with him,if he's driving and a text pings he asks me to look and see who it is. I know the code to the work phone and iPad. We go out once a week for a pub meal and talk and we regularly socialize with family and friends. When we went out this week he held my hand and had his arm round my waist when we talked to people. He is very family focused and has huge respect for his parents. He doesn't work late or stay away from work and we do get on well, have laughs etc. He does still hold my hand etc but I can't shake it off and its going to cause an issue in the end. I over think things as well. For example,yesterday, following a discussion about me being suspicious the day before he didn't have his phone. When I asked him where it was he said in the car. About an hour later I said he better get it ,he said it wasn't in the car, it was shoved under something in the kitchen which I found strange as he wouldn't normally do that. I then feel uneasy again. I asked why it was there and he said he didnt know why he had put in there.He does leave the phone in the bedroom when he goes to clean his teeth etc but I felt he was hiding it from me last night. I have asked him whether he is up to anything and he doesn't get on the defensive, although he does start to get fed up with it. I just don't know what else to do as its making me feel unwell with worry. I am sure I sound like a mental case!