Should i forget and move on or do something??

[winecakeandchoc]

So when i was younger i was sexually assaulted by my older cousin. I've only told one councillor but only mentioned it once. Any way recently i feel like i keep thinking about it. I was about 9 when it started happening and ive managed to not think about it really. Thinking it werent really that bad. But the more i think about it, i more i think it was wrong. I'm more angry than upset that he would trap me in his room and make me do "passwords" to get out.
When i see my aunty i never asked about him i always ask about my other cousin who i like and isnt like his brother. I just really dislike him, he gives me the creeps.
How do i get over these thoughts and anger, i've tried talking about it in counselling but i just get too embarrassed. I know i shouldnt be but i cant help it.

Have a chat to NAPAC

thanks

Could you write it down and give it to your counsellor?

category im not currently seeing anyone atm. I was but had to stop from returning to work from maternity. I guess i could write it down to get my thoughts out though. It is all jumbled in my head and i just recall bits and pieces. What i do recall is the panic i had when he wouldnt let me out of the room though, because i knew what he wanted me to do.

Has anyone else been in a similar situation?? How did you deal with it?