Not sure what advice really I need but I just need to get it all out.
Was with my exP on/off for 7yrs... we have 1 DS. We split up for the final time in oct last year.... he has moved in with his new GF and their baby is due this summer... I've done the calculations on her due date he was clearly sleeping with her when he was still with me. But TBH right now I couldn't give a toss. I'm happy to have finally got out of the toxic relationship I had with him. And I know that right now even though I'm single and lonely it's better than being miserable with him.
Thing is I just can't stop thinking is this it?? I feel like I'll never meet anyone else. And even if I did I'd probably be too old to have a happy family life. I feel really bad thinking like this. I know I'm so blessed to have my son.