My close friends have a lot of stuff going on on their lives right now and I don't want to bang on to them so need someone to remind me it will be ok as I can't stop crying.
Split up with my boyfriend last year after a very difficult year, I knew it was the right decision despite still loving him. Since he left we've kept seeing each other every couple of months, had lovely weekends together but never discussing what we were doing really, both very clear we still love each other and it felt like we were taking some needed time apart.
I finally said we needed to talk about what we were going to do as I knew it was overdue and he'd obviously made a lot of changes in himself to address the problems we'd had. He worked on his anger issues, got hobbies which improved his well being, even took up one of my favourite sports and really tired to change.
Upshot of the conversation was that whilst he loves me (and I him) and that I wasn't the problem he just doesn't feel he can live in this small town anymore. He never liked living here as much as I do as he'd felt he'd 'done' his time here and can't face the thought of moving back. I can't move because of my kids schooling plus I love it here but yes, it is a bit back of beyond.
We said goodbye the other day and I'm literally in bits, I keep crying and remembering all the wonderful times (rose tinted specs I know I know) and re-reading our messages and I'm just so so devastated. Its clear that I hadn't greived the relationship before I guess.
I love him to bits, and I'm just devastated, I truly thought we'd end up together and I'm just heartbroken. I know there are so many worse things going on in the world and it will get better, please just talk me down a bit!!!