I'm so upset and don't know what to do.
Basically my husband and I have had all sorts of issues in the last 18 months, mainly resulting from arguments over the massive debt we're in and his excessive alcohol consumption. We separated in January, but remained under the same roof as we had a lot of logistics to sort out regarding our young children. We have had a lot of 'deep' discussions in the last 6 months that we have been separated and have both, I suppose, taken on board a certain amount of what the other has said. As a result, there has actually been an improvement in things in general, although we certainly hadn't resolved all our differences.
Anyway, 2 weeks ago he had to leave to go abroad on business for a few days and before he left I said I was having second thoughts about a separation. We had a long discussion and it sounded like he was in agreement. However, later that evening he said I had made my bed and now had to lay in it. I was planning on moving to my parents with the children and he said that should go ahead.
Fast forward to yesterday and we moved out. My husband has been very accommodating, dismantled beds etc and moved them round to my parents and rebuilt them. All in all, very helpful. I have been at my parents for 24 hours now and have cried almost solidly since. I don't want to be separated. I don't want us to live apart. I thought this was the way forward, I now realise how wrong I was and that I should have put more effort into working on our marriage. (We did try, but never had much time alone with small children and childcare difficult to come by). I know deep down that I already knew I was making a big mistake by leaving several weeks ago, but he seemed adamant it had to go ahead as we'd told the children.
What can I do? What should I do?