Long story short. Bloke I was seeing 3/4 times a week for 18 months finished things out of the blue last week. I know people say that it is never out the blue but it has completly blindsided me. Right up till the end he was still so attentive, chatting every night if we didn't get together and making plans for summer. Got the bullshit talk from him of me deserving better, he's too old for me & we never get much time together etc.
At this point I should add that he did have mentionitis the last couple of months about another woman. Must have been hedging his bets with her.
Been alone for 7 yrs since wanker exh until this bloke. Similar scenario happened during our marriage whilst I was pregnant, another woman, mentionitis began and exh and his ego couldn't refuse her charms! I won't live like this and left exh after much heartbreak. Life has been so difficult though, he has left me in financial mess, pays no maintenance either to add salt to the wound (self employed 
) and never has for our 2 children, nor does he ever see them. He asked me what was the point 
Anyway, i've gone off on a tangent! I'm so upset about my more recent relationship ending. Within days of his talk of its not you, it's me 
He has been seen a few times with this other woman who he had developed mentionitis about. I'm too old for this shit duplicitous behaviour! Self esteem is at an all time low.
Don't know what i'm asking. Just feeling so shit