I'm in my early 30s with two beautiful children, a lovely home and a good job. From the outside my life looks pretty good but I'm very confused about my future. My partner (children's father) works away a lot and last year I found out that he'd received oral sex from a prostitute. Although we've tried to work few things, I can't quite forget what he did and find myself feeling angry towards him, but very rarely talk about it with him- the reason being that he won't let me talk about it, accusing me of punishing him when I do. This hasn't helped and with the stress he's been going through at work and how he behaves- very up and down moods, it's all pretty exhausting at times. Sometimes, things are good and we do get on well at times but I question my future with him. We're engaged it I can't imagine marrying him now because I feel that it wouldn't feel genuine. I wonder whether to leave and start again and give myself a chance at happiness but we have children and I don't want to devastate them for my own needs.