Is This Abuse? Please help.

[FormerNymphet]

I think I know. I just need to know I am not going mad. I will list the behaviours which make me think he is.
He constantly cheats on me and
then tells me there is something wrong with me if I confront him. I should add this person has Hepatitis C.
He has told me if I leave he will take the children.
He withdraws affection, attention and sex in view of me being cooperative.
He has humiliated in public and in front of people. Although, this does not happen much anymore.
I am completely financially dependant on him.
He has made me borrow money from family members when I did not want to.
He says if I leave he will tell my family all of secrets. I am bisexual and they don't know this. They hate homosexuality.
He seems to enjoy hurting and belittling me.
I am very scared. He has never been physically violent and is fine with the children who are 3 and 1.

I am in Stockport, greater Manchester.

He has never been physical it has always been emotional.

So what's your plan then? Do you think you're ready to start getting your ducks in a row? You know you need to get away from him don't you. THERE IS ALWAYS A WAY

I'm very far unfortunately. There's so much help out there for people in your situation. Women's aid are a great resource, it might take a few attempts to get through when you call them but keep trying because they can help.

Please leave him. You'll be so much stronger and happier without him.

They really helped me... I rang them one morning when he was at work.. engaged for a while and I just kept trying, eventually I got through and I am so glad I did.

I am soo fucking scared. I can't even think straight. He is passed out drunk at the moment.

I feel like a complete cunt.

Why do you feel like a C.... you have done nothing wrong.

He is the one who has put you in a situation where you have no choice but to leave him.

He is the one who has bullied and abused you.

He is the problem you have to leave behind.

He has made it so you have to sneak away to be safe.

Please do not doubt yourself, you have no choice but to do this to protect your DCs.and yourself.

We are all routing for you and will be here...make your plans , don't tell him anything, be very, very careful. Good Luck, there is a better future even if you cannot see it yet.

My self esteem has been slowly eroded away. I have been dealing with this was 18

So sad for you.

This is all on him, he's a shit and he's the one that's eroded your self esteem like this. When you leave (that's when, not if!!) It will be hard but you will be so much stronger and happier for it as will your dc. You don't want your dc to grow up to think relationships like this are normal.

It's the hardest thing in the world but you've already taken a massive step by coming on here to talk about it. Do make that phone call to WA, they will listen to you. We're here for you too.

Thanks guys. I am going to see CAB as well because would l not even be able to support my children if I left.

How are you getting on op?

This is awful. You need to go asap. Please be strong...

OP remember that if you don't come back to this thread at the moment you can always start a new one, people are ALWAYS here to listen, support and advise even if it takes you a while to summon up the strength. Never feel that you can't come back, and keep on trying, it sounds like the truth of your situation and what needs to happen next is dawning on you.