Sorry, I am just bloody furious!!! I
put new light bulbs in my bedroom, so it's rather bright.
I'm taking my make up off and I can really see the scars on my forehead from that waste of skin! They are dents in my face. My nose is all out of shape and I have a purple scar down the middle of it, courtesy of him!
I've got burn marks on the back of my thighs from where I was held down and burnt.
This all happened seven years ago, but I am more angry and frustrated right now than I have been in a long time.
To remove the drip feed, that cunt emotionally abused me until the point I was suicidal. The physical abuse started and then the rapes.
I found my courage to report him to the police, but I couldn't follow it through. By the time it got to court, I was agoraphobic and I was just offered a screen in the courthouse.
All these years later, I am fucking furious!! And so frustrated!! He got off scott free because I developed mental health issues!!
Everytime I look at myself in the mirror, I see what he did!
I don't know why I'm posting this; to off load and encourage anyone in a bad situation to get out!
It has taken me a lot of years to rebuild my life, but if I can do it, you can.
Finn thing is, if you meet me, you would never think I am a survivor of bullshit abuse;
Some of the lovely women on here know me. I feel safe and happy with my new crew 
I'm just so bloody mad right now!!