No contact broken

[Tiredbutnotyetretired]

I was doing so well just getting on with life, obviously theres days where im up and down due to the emotional abuse in the relationship but like i say just getting on with things. The thing is i bumped into him yesterday, totally taken off guard, i was polite and friendly but my anexiety went through the roof. He lingered for a chat and i was dying to get away, i just didn't know what to say or do and im so embarrassed at how shaky i started to get.
I always thought if i ever seen him i would smile and walk away but it was so strange, felt normal to be with him and chatting, until my body went into fight or flight mode. Im cringeing to death please give me some words of encouragement.

Sounds like you did just fine girl!
You were:
Polite and friendly (non-emotional, i.e. giving him nothing to feed off)
Dying to get away

What is embarrassing about that? Sounds like you were all over it to be honest. You didn't linger and get sucked back in. You left him and you're getting on with your life, it was a shock to see him but it would be. And now you don't have to worry about a time when you could bump into him accidentally because you already did. And you aced it.

I dont think i aced it my voice was shaking ( not immediately but i think my body was sensing 'danger'). The nerves were really escalating and i told him i have to go im too nervous .
I then just walked away, the convo lasted about 5 mins (too long). I think i could sense his nerves too, and i just really needed to get away. Im dying with embarrasment at saying what i did before i walked away but it was just so akward at a certain point. He then had to walk past me again and we both just smiled. But yes i suppose next time (hopefully there wont be a next time) i will have gotten past that akward stage