Why can't I pull myself away

[Blushingm]

I have a friend - we sleep together. I'm sure he uses me but I can't seem to stay away.

He has a criminal record, is on benefits, is currently banned from driving but drives anyway, drives drunk, smokes too much, drinks too much, takes drugs. Sometimes he says he sees us together, other times he says he doesn't want to be with me, before Christmas he slept with his ex from 5 years ago, he chats to women on pof and for all I know meets up with them.

I've never met his family except his aunt his cousin and his son but his mum sends me Christmas & birthday gifts and keeps saying she wants to meet me.

I know it seemed like he's using me like a stop gap til someone else comes along but I just can't seem to keep away - we speak/text all day every day

I don't know what to do

I'm so afraid of being lonely

Gather your last shreds of self respect and go to the cat reacue centre. .
Get yourself something loyal, faithful and loving to cuddle instead..
And block the useless bastard you are wasting your time and effort on.

He sounds like a dream! Where on earth is your self esteem. Don't engage with him. Bin him off and spend some time being kind to yourself. Don't waste another minute of your time waiting around for this waste of oxygen. You deserve much much better

Why are you punishing yourself.

Jesus Christ, what the fuck happened to you that this low life is all you think you deserve ?

Tbh, I would judge you simply for your association with this drink driving, drug taking loser

Is this what you aspired to when you were growing up ?

Does he pay for his TV licence though? Surely there must be something worth hanging on in there for?

And women wonder why the "bad boys are more attractive" stereotype refuses to die off!

What do you see in this muppet? Do you think he'll change when that lightbulb goes off in his head, he realises you're "the one" and all of a sudden he'll change to become the great husband & father (but with a rough edge, to keep him interesting) that every Mills & Boon book promises lady knows is out there?

I don't know what I see - I get frustrated with myself as I know he's not good. I don't want to marry him etc but on the other hand I don't want to not have him either.......neither do I want anyone else to have him

No tiger he doesn't pay his license or his water bill!

OP, why are you so afraid of being lonely?

I don't know it just scares me - I feel safe if I'm not on my own, if there's someone caring about me I'm safe

I suppose my mum was very lonely, she drank herself to death

OP, in what way does he actually care about you??

PGTips - I don't know. He says he does but I can't think how he shows it

He's all talk. You can only go by his actions. He'll say anything to get what he wants.