hi left job due to threats of im going to leave. took other job. had to leave it. spilled my guts to everyone including secrets people had told me. lost all my friends. rumour spreading i am unstable. affecting my children. try try try to save marriage and all friendships. blacklisted at former jobs and very little references. relying on pity. husband about to leave. trying not to feel anger. staying at home, very hard. just need a few people to talk to. just need a few friends. every friend i make abuses me.