Last year I lost someone very close to me, it hit me really hard and my anxiety, which I've had on and off over the years returned. I was also diagnosed with depression. I turned to my husband for support he didn't know how to handle it and I feel he withdrew from our relationship, not much communication, support etc. Just before Christmas we had a very rare night out which I was very much looking forward to. At the end of the night, after a few too many, he brought up the subject of a threesome, told me he fancied someone else. I left went home and the next day he moved in with a friend for a few days was full of apologies doesn't remember saying it. I let him back and we have been trying to get the relationship back on track. 2 weeks ago after another rare night out and again after a few too many he really laid into me, I've sucked the life out of him, he hates me, I'm a mess, wishes he never met me and a few other things. As I say I suffer with depression as well as anxiety and have very low self esteem and all of the horrible things I think about myself, which I know deep down are not true, and that I confided in him about he through back in my face and said the reason I think them is because they are true. Again the next day couldn't remember what he'd said was full of apologies etc etc. However, I can remember them every single nasty hurtful word he said this time and the last time and I can't get them out of my head. I'm so upset and Pi£££ed off. I';m still coming to terms with the loss of someone close, seem to be getting on top of my mh issues have just started a new career, which I am doing great at, and feel like he has just kicked me back a year. I don't feel I have the energy to ask him to leave and he's pretending everything is fine. I'm stuck