First time poster, long time lurker... So please be gentle
I've been with my dp for nearly 2 years at the start of the realionship everything was fine (honeymoon period)
Well lately I am really at a loss of what to do.
I've never cheated on my dp or gave him any reason to believe I have cheated, well its all getting to much lately and I feel like I'm walking on eggshells constantly.
It all came to a head around 8weeks ago I went to bed around 10pm and he was still downstairs I had left my phone downstairs as it was charging. I was fast asleep when I woke up with him punching me in the face he dragged me out of bed by my hair and gave me a good beating when I finally managed to get out of him WTF was it all about he finally told me he had been going though my phone and found a few sexy messages between me and a guy I was talking to 4years ago. When I finally said please look at the date of the email it was 4years ago way before I started seeinh you he just said oh I didn't see that and walked back downstairs leaving me a shaking mess upstairs. A few days after I was on the toilet having a wee and my phone was in my hand he gave me a death stare and then slapped me round the face.
Things have got even worse lately. If im on my phone I've got to sit next to him and show him everything I'm doing, if he's been out through the day he will go on my search history to see what I've been doing. Every night I've got to cuddle up to him and watch a movie I carnt even stand been next to him but I'm not allowed no time to myself I have to be hugging him constantly. We even share a phone now as he said he carnt trust me but I've done nothing..
The house is in his name I grew up in Foster care so I don't have any family I haven't even got 1 RL friend (sad I know) dp always telling me i will never get anybody better than him and how much of a shit dp I am but all I do everyday is things to please him if I don't then I know to accept a beating it's became the "norm" the for me and I'm really worn out like dp said I've got nobody so who will give a fuck if he's beating me or belittling me nobody sees me to know
And a last night i was awake all night as he said in a passing comment if I killed u in your sleep tonight your body could be rotting in thus house for months and nobody would even know coz nobody loves you "only muggings here' and quite frankly its scared me to death, my nerves are shot I'm a mess I hate him so much but don't know how to get out I'm scared to get out
Someone please help or even someone to talk to I'm wearing thin right now!!!