Hi, I've changed my name - just wanted to test that my profile wouldn't show up with the pseud.
Me and dp have been stuggling for a while. I feel like I've put up with a lot but didn't want to give up on him - he was the love of my life and has been having some problems, but looking back I feel I've let him manipulate me.
He's never been violent, just belittling. A couple of years before our LO was born he asked me to have cosmetic surgery so I would be more like how I was when I was younger. I was at such a low ebb, I did. He paid for it but of course it didn't make any difference to him, or me for that matter. The surgeon thought we were a bit mad anyway, as I was still in my early 30s and well, the fault was in dp's imagination, not in me.
I've managed to get myself together in the last few years, rebuilding my self esteem and becoming more independent, but he has become more and more demanding and cruel.
We are splitting up but he is refusing to let me have a voice in this either. He has laid waste to our history and seems determined to leave no happy memory intact or uncompromised. My heart is completely broken and I feel such a fool. I don't know why I'm posting, there's no advice to give. I just wanted to get it out.